let it rain

happy new years, peeps!  I hope you were good to last night and it was good to you.  john was working, so the boys and I crashed a party at our friends house.  "make your own stir fry" was on the menu and it was DELISH!!  good food, good drinks, amazing friends...a good way to start a new year, right?  the boys were in bed by 1230; it was more like 130 for me, but my amazing kids let me sleep until 1015.  LOVE THEM!

so I kinda alluded to this yesterday, but I had a word picked out.  and then a new word picked me.  sheesh.  on top of it, I usually pick a scripture as a foundation for my word but this year my anchor is a song.  yep.  I got to see mumford & sons last year and they were AMAZING.  I'm thinking it's fitting that this song is going to be my theme song for this next year:

awake.  my word for 2014.  why, you might ask?  well, I run most of my life in auto pilot.  busy is an understatement in my world.  it's never an excuse, but it's my reality.  two very active kids in sports, a husband that works night shift and a full time job that is more like a job and a half!  in my free time {ha!}, I sit on my ass and watch a crap load of tv.  and when I have a burst of energy, I clean my house!  it's true.  but I do a lot of this in auto pilot.  and I am often emotionally and physically asleep.  I get that busy is my reality.  I get that I spend most of my days listening, counselling, making decisions for other people and generally being "on my game", but my kids are missing out on my best.  I am missing out on my best.  I need to find some balance.  I think I've used this analogy before, but I believe that you walk in the direction that your feet are pointing.  where are my feet pointing?  where am I investing my life and my love?  honestly, right now?  no where.  I am tired, weak, worn.  2014 needs to be a year in which I live my life {physical, emotional, spiritual} awake.  ready.  renewed.  awake my soul.

psalms 57:8 says this:  "awake, my soul!  awake harp and lyre!  I will awaken the dawn." {so there was a scripture for this one!}  in 2014 I will awaken the dawn.

what's your word?  join me.  {all you have to do is click on the picture for the link!}