Wednesday, June 28, 2006


k, so not a lot gets me really excited. everyone who knows me, knows this to be true. a good cup of coffee in a big mug. a good idea that just might come to fruition. the smell of an old book. hugs from little boys. a homemade pizza. THE NEW SU! CATTY!!!!! it is so friggin' cool! there are not enough words to describe how much trouble I am in with this creative juices are already starting to flow and I have NOTHING in hand, but a lone catty :o)

just y'all wait...and hopefully you can be excited with me!

Sunday, June 25, 2006

nate's first football game

nate with his football shirt & football socks & "pack-pack" that HE had to carry! off to the eskimo game with daddy! I should have taken a picture of when the got home & he fell asleep while I was putting his pj's on! he had so much fun, watching "like on tv"!

Saturday, June 24, 2006

to the market we go!

well, it is summer today! rae & I walked 10.5k this morning - we doubled a steep hill out of the river valley - and it felt a LOT better than the last time we went! yeah us!

then nate & I went to the downtown market to find some onions...turns out, no onions. that's okay. we got peppers [red, green, yellow], tomatoes, cupcakes & low-fat cookies from the cookie lady! what a fun time. we ran into katherine, as well as my aunt & uncle. maybe nate and I will make this part of our saturday morning routine! I am planning to make some burgers for supper tonight, so the tomatoes will do well! but alas, no onion.

john & nate are going to the eskimo game tonight. it's a late start, but hopefully nate will nap a bit. I, on the other hand, am going to VSN as much as I can tonight! ['cause tomorrow is ALL about finishing my school work!]

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

a bit of an icky day

stress. I really dislike it and haven't had a lot of it in my life over the last while, but today I was feeling it. my reaction? clench my teeth [which led to a HUGE headache] and eat. I really need to get back on track with my goals. they have really gone by the wayside with report cards, IPP's, fighting 9 & 10 year old girls, aggressive boys, birthday parties, mmmm. I need to get some perspective this weekend. I need to get my IPP's done before friday so that I can spend the weekend getting my brain back. there are 6 more teaching days of school, 3 of which are fieldtrips and the like. I can do this. I can do this without gaining ANY weight. I can drink all my water. and I can walk, walk, walk.

and now, exhaustion has hit and I need to go to bed [even if it's the first show of big brother tonight!].

Monday, June 19, 2006

start of the second period...

and we are down by a goal.

but alas, I am doing everything BUT what I should be doing - my IPP's! grrr. and I have an icky dentist appointment tomorrow morning. double grrr. and I just ate a piece of cake. is there a triple grrr?? oh well...more pics from ty's birthday.

above: new hat from aunty [it came with a matching sweater!]
below: eating blue cupcakes!!

Sunday, June 18, 2006

my baby is one!

I can't believe how time flies. I remember birthing this one like it was yesterday - okay, so maybe the pain is not as excruciating as it was a year ago...but you know what I mean! my sweet, sweet boy. he's had a personality of his own since he was born. cuddly, mischievous, sweet, beautiful. what can I say - I love him to death & am constantly amused by his ability to tolerate everything his brother lays in his path. I cannot wait to see what kind of kid he'll be and in turn what kind of man he will grow up into. regardless, I know it will be a fun, trying, amazing journey along the way.

Saturday, June 17, 2006


instead of going back to bed when rae called me to cancel our walk, I hit the pavement and did 3k! crapola though, 'cause my knee is giving me a rough time. tonight is ty's little birthday party...that should be fun.

so, I went and bought the cd! and this is the part of the song I really like:

"staring at the blank page before you / open up the dirty window / let the sun illuminate the words that you cannot find / reaching for something in the distance / so close you can almost taste it / release your inhibitions

feel the rain on your skin / no one else can feel it for you / only you can let it in / no one else, no one else can / speak the words on your lips / drench yourself in words unspoken / live your life with arms wide open / today is where your book begins / the rest is still unwritten"

Thursday, June 15, 2006


I'm sure I did something exceptional, but I'm not too sure what. I dealt with students fairly. talked with parents honestly. stayed after school just to hang out with the people I work with and really like and am going to REALLY miss next year when they go off to other schools. so, maybe not exceptional in my eyes, but hopefully exceptional in the eyes of someone else.

I have been feeling a rush of creativity lately. lots of things streaming all up in my head...almost overwhelming.

tomorrow is tres busy. shopping for ty's birthday, dan's birthday, father's day...lotsa stuffs! oh, and the dentist. grrr. feeling the itch. and a bit of a strange inspiration.

I was watching "so you think you can dance" last night and when I turned it on, there was a couple just starting their dance and I was SO blown away. they danced to a natasha bedingfield song that really got me thinking. and now I *need* the cd! I'll find the lyrics and post them!

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

be exceptional.

this is my new goal. I feel like I am really suffering from a lot of negativity right now - part of that is stress, part is just time of year, part is just me being selfish and not wanting to actually do the work I need to do.

so I have done close to 2 sugar-free days. then tonight I went to starbucks to get john a piece of carrot cake. so I was talking to the girl about sugar-free caramel machiatto's and she was telling me how they can make it with sugar-free vanilla syrup, but how the caramel on top had sugar, yada, yada, yada. needless to say, I let myself be talked into a sugar-free soy caramel machiatto with the caramel on top - WHAT'S THE POINT??? exactly. so to make up for it, I also ate a low fat brownie. yeah, that makes sense! funny thing is, when I plugged it all into my food tracker, I came out okay for calories - who knew. so as of this moment, I am right back on track...even though I will have the withdrawal headache again tomorrow. my kids at school must just LOVE me when I have that withdrawal headache!

ironically though, I got the "The Way I See It #53" cup that I always get. it starts with: "be exceptional. make tremendous efforts to be extraordinary. what a privilege to be here on the planet to contribute your unique donation to humankind. just make sure you do so..." [shelby lynn]

this got me thinking. I need to change my outlook and maybe the best way to do that is to be exceptional in my words, thoughts and actions. do something exceptional for someone. and herein lies the challenge: what can you do that is exceptional? I'd be interested in knowing. so, if you are a regular reader of my deepest, darkest musings, post a comment and let me know what you have done today.

Monday, June 12, 2006

everything but what I should be doing...

which is finishing my report cards. I have one lone subject left to do and the one piece of paper I need to do them is sitting on my desk at school. okay, so I don't really NEED the paper, it's just an excuse, but having my paper would make it easier...since the comments are on there, written out, just waiting for me to assign grades to. I could, potentially have them all done by class time tomorrow morning...well, other than my GLA for social & science. I forget how much work it all is, especially when I have other priorities. like planning ty's birthday! fun stuff!

not to mention, erika pointed out to me that hell's kitchen is on tonight...

Sunday, June 11, 2006

I'm heading to bed!

but I just wanted to say a few words about my day.

I was really honoured to be invited to susan's church this morning for her baptism. I was really blown away by the whole thing. susan, you did an incredible job sharing your testimony and I am glad that I know you and that we are friends.

we had madi's dance recital this afternoon...and looks like nate is going to take dance lessons this fall with grandma! all in all, a wonderful sunday - I didn't touch any school work all weekend, but that's's 9pm, I am heading to bed and I will get a fresh start tomorrow morning.

Saturday, June 10, 2006

9K today!

rae & I walked a great 9k loop today - from my house, down groat road, through government house park, over the river on the "under the LRT" bridge, up an AWFUL hill [which we will double next week], down emily murphy park road, over groat bridge, under groat bridge [lol] back through government house park, up groat road and home! PHEW! that and 1.5L of water so far...a good start to the weekend!

nate & ty are both sleeping...ty's been asleep since 11am...maybe I need to wake him up! nate & I went to lisa's discovery toys party this morning; nate really enjoyed playing in the backyard with all the toys!

and I stamped last night. I'll post some cards here. I am still feeling like I am in a big stamping slump, but hey, playing with my new dazzling diamonds was fun, fun, fun!!

Friday, June 09, 2006


I have an official funk going on. grrr. I hate the week of my period. I feel stressed, wonky, grumpy, uncreative. all funked up.

so, back to the 3 basics: eat less. move more. hydrate. I should make that 4 basics & add blogging. journaling my journey really makes me more retrospective and therefore keeps me on track.

so, here's me letting my stress go...
  • as of today, my job at MGG is safe
  • about 3/4 of my report cards are done - after this weekend they should all be done
  • although $ is always a stress, if we stick to the plan, we'll be okay
  • the dentist...okay, so it's not great, but I will go to the ortho, get all the gunk taken care of, pay the cash needed for that, live with the discomfort...
  • I will get through the next 3 weeks and enjoy the WHOLE summer with the boys

okay, so I'll stop now. the boys are sleeping, john is watching something on tv...and ty is so very close to walking more than 2 steps! maybe this weekend 'cause at this time next week I am going to be all weird and emotional about my baby's first birthday!

Sunday, June 04, 2006

coffee & water

as I sit here early on a sunday morning, listening to nate try to talk his way out of his room, I am enjoying a completely amazing cup of coffee! I need to enjoy more of the small the 10 minutes in the morning where it is quiet, sunny and I am alone with my big mug. my legs and butt are SO sore from yesterday's walk...a good sore, but SORE!

I drank all my water yesterday - all 3L. I need to do that EVERY day! oh, and I stamped yesterday [finally got my new summer mini stamps mounted!]...even if I shamelessly CASE'ed a card in the mini!

yesterday was a very productive day [maybe that's why I am feeling good this morning]: I walked, shopped [groceries!], cleaned, susan came by [insert smile!], I went by evie's to drop stuff off for angela & to visit with her mom & dad AND got 2 cards done! this means today, I have no excuses. report cards need to be half done by the time I go to school tomorrow!

Saturday, June 03, 2006

and it's Saturday again!

and only 3 more and school will be almost finished! I am so overwhelmed by the amount of work that I need to do between now and the end of this month that I am doing nothing. tonight I need to get a ton done on my report cards.

I walked close to 10k with rae this morning...we went slower than normal, but it was good to log in the time on the soles of my feet. I have had a really awful eating week this week too, so I am trying really hard to log all my food and get in all my water. constant goals, I know, but I just seem to be in a funk about the whole thing [as I sit here in my size 14 jeans...jeans I couldn't wear well 6 weeks ago]. I think that I just hate the hard work that comes with losing weight. and it is just that - hard work. well, I guess I will just have to suck it up and be sure that I am not eating to relieve my stress. water, water, water!!