grrr

I feel blah! I've been eating well and moving as much as I can, but I feel like I am hitting the wall. emotionally. I feel myself cutting corners here and there and I cannot let myself do that. why? why am I sabotaging myself? bottom line, I don't believe that I deserve to be happy with how I look. I don't believe that I am worthy of the time and energy it takes to take care of me. I don't believe that I deserve to be skinny. why? I know why...not ready to post it in an open blog. I need to get this train back on track so to don't fall all the way over. bottom line, if I don't do this now in my life, it ain't ever gonna happen. so, pull up your socks, girl and buckle down and do the work. today. right now. forever.