Wednesday, January 30, 2013

five minute friday: again

yep.  SUPER late.  too late?  nope.  that said, I've been feeling like I've been in a funk lately.  tired, busy, stressed, tired {did I say that already?}.  so in some ways, I feel like I've cheated on this fmf.  I knew what the word was last week.  I've had time to roll around with it in my head.  regardless, there are reasons that it took me six days to get around to writing this post.

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it plays around in my head, over and over.  again and again.  you failed.  again.  you will never change.  you've failed.  again.  resolutions, plans, things that need change.  I've failed.  again.  round and round it plays.  over and over.  again and again.  that recording of defeat in my head.

where did I learn to sabotage myself?  where did I learn the negativity that plays in my head?  when did I decide that it was okay to be so awful.  to myself.  who gave me permission to destroy my own ambition.  my goals.  my dreams.  yet again?

so today, I'm saying STOP.  just like max in where the wild things are.  it's time to go home.  to where my dinner is still warm.  where grace abounds.  where I get to do this tomorrow.  again.  where I get to brush off the defeat and try again.  and again.  and again.  fall eight times, get up eight times.  and again if I need to.

stop the negative, yet again.  start fresh.  again.


your turn.


Patti said...

I know this soundtrack. I know it well. When I read the prompt "again.." last week, the first thing that came to mind was " failed." I just love your allusion to Max. It is apt. Because isn't it the growling monsters trying to defeat before we've begun? Isn't it the whispers of the prowling lion looking for someone to destroy? Isn't it cruel distraction from grace and incomprehensible love? Well written Cori.

EJ Reading said...

Having a catch-up session.

My again post was about the fallings and the falling over again and again, but how again and again He picks us back up, and again and again there is grace and mercy. We keep going, keep running this race, and by his grace we will endure to the end.

Anonymous said...

I really enjoyed our post, the life i choose. Thanks for sharing. I appreciate your encouragement as well...subscribing to Max's idea to STOP. How quickly our perspective can change!

Heather said...

You're right. Saying stop needs to happen. ANd picking yourself up is the hardest part and the most rewarding.